Family, Life Daily, Personal Blog

Daddy Boss

                                                        

Nobody in this world can love a girl than his father. -Michael Ratnadeepak

I would still love to have you walk just behind me as I take my steps forward,

I feel secure you can spread your big arms for me as you guide me through. 

I would still love to have you swing me off the ground when I stumble to my feet,

I’d feel fine right away ’cause you always assure me it’s fine to stumble from time to time tay siya di nan masiksiknak di.

I would still love to run behind you from my bully friends cause I know you’d scold them away.

I would still love to have you pick me up to your arms and let me cry as hard as I can until I get fine frenzy and just fall asleep.  

I hated those times you started commanding me to stand up on my own but I know you’re secretly watching over me with full alert as though I might fall.

I hated those times that you let me do things on my own though I know you’re fingers itch you’d love to help me out.

I hated those times you scold me saying “nengan kat” though I know that to you, I am and will always be your baby girl but you just need to be Boss Inggo!

I love you though. I understand everything was out of love. 

I thank you so much for you finely welded me to a better and stronger me.

#MyDaddyBossInggo with MOM

Family, Personal Blog

An Aunt to My Nephew

Only an aunt can give hugs like a mother,  can keep secrets like a sister,  and share love like a friend. 

-Anynomous

I always knew as you raise your head to look at me, one day I will be doing the same towards you when you’ve grown tall.                                                                                 I always knew as you hold my pinky fingers as we walk together on the streets, one days I will be the one who’ll hold your arm as we walk together like old times. 

I always knew as you lean on me when you feel sleepy, one day I will be the one leaning on your shoulders when I feel the same. 

I always knew as you cry in my arms when you’re hurt for some reason, one day at some point of my life where Im hurt, I will be crying on yours too. 

I always knew as I offer you advices in life,one day you will be sharing some to me as well.

I always knew being an aunt to you is somewhat special.

Kingdom of Saudi Arabia, Life Daily, Personal Blog

Talking my Heart Out

Getting sunshine after a long time is the best feeling! 

You have no idea how delighted I feel just being under the sun for a moment while enjoying the desert breeze blowing my hair,  and the feel of the desert atmosphere! 

One moment please, 📸Snap! 

Really…  the best feeling! 

Things like these rarely happen,  where you can say “keep calm,  relax!”.

 Most often you get to go out only if you’re out to the mall for shopping on a day off for the week. And that’s it, back to the accomodation again to do your own thing or just sleep.  Simple.  You’d be lucky enough if there’s a planned party in the esteraha (vacation house for rent) or somewhere else that you were approved by the kafeel (employer) to attend or we will have to wait for special occasions like birthdays,  christmas et al. 

I’m sure you know what I mean if you used to live or you are living here in the Kingdom of Saudi Arabia. 

Its almost a year since I came here and a year more to go before I get myself board a plane back home! I keep looking forward to that. I hope time run fast,  I miss everything about home. 

Things totally changed after I decided to set foot in the Kingdom. I just can’t live the life I used to live. Everything here was contrary to my lifestyle that I have to delay most of my self gratifications, since there are a lot of limitations with most things. 

I was like confined for rehabilitation,  which I can’t really tell if it is. Things for me are getting worse emotionally,  but I pray hard I’ll get over it inshallah. One thing is for sure,  I was drawn closer to God.  And I’m getting to know myself better.  I get more time to recollect,  reminisce,  and reflect of my past.  

Jump your heart out! It’s been a while.

 

Life Daily, Personal Blog, revenge

Revenge?  NO. 

“An eye for an eye,  a tooth for a tooth.”

Sure,  I am human too.  I would love to get back to those people who put me in trouble, people who say things that wouldn’t be true or do things that could make me look bad. I’ll surely get mad that I’d get a strong desire to get hold of those people and verbally or physically crush them.

“An eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth.” There should be equity. They should know how it feels like. But trust me,  its only in my mind. Though I admit I struggle so much not to give in to the temptation to encourage my vengeful feelings. Revenge is almost like a medicine as they say, bitter sweet. You might just wish to take a dose of it and feel better.

 It is but natural to have such desires,  but turn away from it. We must overlook what hurts, keep peace and a forgiving heart

and just let God handle things for us. 

do not avenge yourselves, but rather give place to wrath; for it is written, “vengeance is mine, I will repay,says the Lord. Therefore

“If your enemy is hungry, FEED HIM;
If he is thirsty, GIVE HIM A DRINK;
For in so doing you will heap coals of fire on his head.”

Personal Blog

A Rainy Afternoon

                  Feeling the raindrops falling into my hand.. 

“The rain in the burning heat of summer is a blessing of God”

I just love everything about the rain.. the smell. the sight.. the sound.. could swiftly calm and soothes my senses. 

Thank you for the rain! 

For days of conspicious weather,  frequent sand storms and most days of sun behind us, the skies are full of gloom and the rain falls by the grace of God on this remarkable afternoon, I was able to indulge myself with the beautiful moment to feel and watch the rainfall I always longed for months. 

Summer was out of place for a moment making most rejoice with the good showering.  I took advantage of it.  I thought I’d share a few shots. 

The rain eventually ended, leaving an earthy clay like smell and a cold moist breeze. Tomorrow the sun will surely rise again and the rain feels would only be in memory until the next rainfall. 

I was thankful I got to experience the rain that brought life to plants and trees and a smile on people who loves the rain. 

Personal Blog

A Short Guide to Apologies

Written by Millionaire’s Digest Team Member: Hira Amir Founder & Owner of: The Loudest Thoughts Millionaire’s Digest Team, Contributor, Healthy Living and Successful Living Writer We are all humans and sometimes we make mistakes, after all, mistakes help us grow and find ourselves. But sometimes the mistakes we make may hurt the people we love and the […]

via A Short Guide to Apologies (3 min read) — Millionaire’s Digest

Personal Blog

Introverts

 

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By nature I’m sort of an introvert.– Paolo Bacigalupi

Introvert. What comes into your mind when you hear that? Some are probably thinking that these are the anti-social, friendless, loner and awkward people. I know. I hear those countless times. I am an introvert and all my life, I was often regarded that way. It was quite a struggle being perceived wrongly. But I won’t blame anyone. It happens when people doesn’t have any experience of our kind.

I don’t know why I’m talking about this right now. Its one of the things I don’t talk about unless someone cares to ask. But today, I’d love to talk about it!

Allow me to make you understand why we do what we do.

“Alone had always felt like an actual place to me, as if it weren’t a state of being, but rather a room where I could retreat to be who I really was.” – Cheryl Strayed

  1. 12Solitude to us is more than just a preference. It’s a necessity for it’s where we draw our energy and happiness.
  2. We love socializing as much as you do. However, it won’t take long before we’d go back to our own sanctuary to refuel from socializing. That’s right, social situations drain our energy.

    “We’re not anti-social; we’re just differently social.”

  3. We spend our time alone. But that doesn’t mean we don’t have friends. No. We do have friends we tend to share deep and strong bond but just few people. We prioritize quality over quantity.
  4. We don’t talk so much, initially. You might think that we’re not interested or or snob. Give us some time. We usually take time to warm up to other people we just met.
  5. Our silence doesn’t mean that we are upset or mad at you. Please don’t overthink or assume things. We just have our inner worlds where we often think things through or processing thoughts.
  6. We are highly sensitive to noise that’s why we stay away from crowded places as much as possible. Blame our brain for being aroused by more subtle stimuli than other people.
  7. We prefer writing to talking. We are not talkers. We find it easier to communicate or express ourselves through writing rather than on the spot. that’s why you’ll find us sharing more of our views and opinions on social medias or whatnot.
  8. We appear like we’re not taking things in with our reactions and facial expression. But we’re quietly observing, and taking everything in.
  9. We love listening. We live by the saying “you have two ears and one mouth for a reason”. You’ll be surprised if you’ll find yourselves at ease opening things to us. I mean, who wouldn’t when you have someone willing to listen and pays you attention.

I guess I’m done here. It actually took me a lot of courage to write this. I hope I was able to rectify some if not most of the misunderstandings and misconceptions about us.

Shout out to my people out there, would there be any corrections or anything else that I miss to add here. Let me know. I can add more numbers.